Celestials
I look up into the winter night sky
To see if the same star is seen that you look upon
But clouds have covered the celestials from me
Perhaps the mists have done the same where you stand?
So I send out my thoughts on the current of air passing over me
And hope that they journey to be breathed in by you
December14 2006
Lion~*Paw
Today a good friend of mine said this to me:
"Rejection, I think, is a result of expectation. Perhaps it's a risk and result of caring because we (at least I) can't and don't want to guard my heart so that I have NO hope of returned affection, appreciation, contact, support from others in my life."
I have poured out my heart for my friends. Listened for hours. Given them the grace to be who they are. Accepted their differences and rejoiced in the unique characters that have surrounded me. I have given what knowledge and wisdom I have been given myself. There can be such a richness in sharing ones life and caring with an open heart of kind love.
Rejection, who would want to reject such a bounty of support, gentle understanding, respect and affirmation of worthiness? Yet I have found this my gift many misfortunate times. I've not done a very good job of guarding my heart. Truth be told, each time, I didn't know I had need of a centurion at its gateway! Risk and result... win some, lose some, broken and bruised some, kept in heart to some as well. All in all, my heart remains open... even to those who've turned away... for they gave me something I needed to know to become this woman that I myself love to know! Whether I am remembered or forgotten in rot... I recall them and still wish it were different, but perhaps they could not risk their armour be put down and the result has fortified their loneliness even more than mine?
So I think of them who once called me 'best' 'most valued' 'forever my friend' and I will uphold them in this heart of mine... until my days end.
Love Lion~*LoveAndHopePaw
