I delete it all from view and pack it into cold storage... but that I am afraid has been permafrosting a portion of my heart. Rather forfeits my desire for integrity.
I have lost the tears that should have soaked my pillow. What is new? Not that! It is just that so much has happened that is so blasted harsh this year... stressors so high they take the breath from me and I can only pray silently... and in my weakened soul... I know He hears.
Last week a friend of mine said, " You are always positive!" Well, no, I am not. I just try to find the positives because I am trying to outrun the negatives. But it is futile... because I can't outrun what has taken up residence in me. I can only STOP... and tidy up room by room.
"When you slow down, step back a moment and put things in perspective, you can then move on with more efficiency. It only takes a moment to adapt and control how you respond."
Doc Childre,
When you get into a tight place and everything goes against you till it seems as though you could not hold on a minute longer, never give up then, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn.Harriet Beecher Stowe, 1811-1896
"The key is to not resist or rebel against emotions or to try to get around them by devising all sorts of tricks; but to accept them directly, as they are."
- Takahisa Kora
I do not believe that sheer suffering teaches.If suffering alone taught, all the world would be wise,since everyone suffers.To suffering must be added mourning,understanding, patience, love, openness,and a willingness to remain vulnerable.Anne Morrow Lindbergh, 1906-2001
M. Scott Peck: The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers.
No coward soul is mine,
No trembler in the
world's storm - troubled sphere:
I see Heaven's glories shine,
And Faith shines equal,
arming me from Fear.
Emily Jane Bronte
"Challenges make you discover things about yourself that you never really knew. They're what make the instrument stretch -what makes you go beyond the norm."
Cicely Tyson
If you do not tell the truth about yourself you cannot tell it about other people. Virgina Wolfe
I love these songs by Annie Lennox!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wXBhBDCdiSY
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-iX1CQJ_0l8
"Don't forget that little emotions are the great captains of our lives."
-- Vincent Van Gogh
There... my pep talk to myself for the day!
Now I shall go outside and tend my garden... and unburden some of the weight within me.
Lion~*
